Playing the game

Damn its been a while! Just been enjoying the new job, making good music, havin fun times with the family, chillin wit my girl (yea I have a girlfriend now, crazy huh?). But yea on my mind right now is I guess what you call office politics. I love my new job, which makes me excel at the job I'm doing and causes me to become eager to learn more about the job, so all in all I'm going a pretty good job according to my supervisors and co-workers, and right now, thats all I care about impressing. I really feel that a person's performance, his rapport with his co workers, and his overall demeanor dictates how far he/she will go within the company. All throughout college I used to hear these tidbits of advice that I didn't agree with and now I will not adhere to them. I'm not going to take an executive out to lunch and rub shoulders with him/her in hopes of getting first dibs on a promotion, if the dress code is business casual, I'm going to dress business casual, if we wear jeans on fridays, then shit I'ma wear jeans on fridays! I go above and beyond with the work I do, not in how well I kiss ass, or how EXTRA I dress. For wearing a suit and tie while everyone else is wearing jeans and kissing ass does not equal to productivity. If I can't move up in the corporate world by just bustin my ass day in and day out at work and being punctual and not getting into disputes with coworkers, then FUCK it you know i'm just one hit away © Jay-Z from getting this music shit goin anyways. I guess the lesson for today is stay true to yourself and believe in God. My faith in God that I will succeed is more important than any windsor knot and slacks.

Inspiration

Well shit its been a while...I started my new job today, I think I'ma enjoy my time there. The parking is expensive, but everything else seems to be a1. I spent the weekend at my alma mater Jarvis Christian College. Shout out to TA Apes for throwing the crunkest party that school has seen this year thus far. I'm glad everybody was happy to see me, and I missed college for like one day, then I was like fucc this I'm glad I'm gone. Although their new dormitories are the shit forreal! And I got the spend time with a special female friend (you ain't got nothin to worry about) This is in addition to kickin it with my niggas A.P. Huff and D. Cokes and also givin my nigga J. Will a hard time lol.

My nigga Laron at the school holdin it down with his new music getting good responses and I'm glad to be associated with what he's doin. I got 4 beats on the project he's been pushin, and the nigga is talented. So a lot of people I believe have been questioning me and what exactly do I do. How do I get inspired? I mean how does some young nigga from Fort Worth, TX make beats that DON'T sound like the stanky leg or the dirty booty or the booty meat or whatever dance is out now. Well shit for one I'm inspired by good music PERIOD. Listening to old D' Angelo will make me wanna step my drum game up. Listening to old Lauryn Hill will make me want my beats to sound more whole. Some producers challenge me to go above and beyond and really make some good shit such as Alchemist, 9th Wonder, and most recently Black Milk. I just appreciate how these niggas flip samples in their own way. Some of my colleagues in this shit help me get inspired too. My dude MidiMarc (midimarc.blogspot.com) got this fresh produce shit he's been doin where he's givin out beats for the LOW, I mean LOW even lower than I was given em at my lowest lol, so any of you rappers that need beats that are on point but don't have the pockets holla at that nigga cuz I ain't doin that shit lol! My niggaz Nom and Soze trade beats with me and make me wanna step my shit up too...Biggie's, Jay's and Nas' (first album + Premo collabs) make me wanna step my game up too, so basically I'm inspired by dope music...A Dot McCray

Can I Live?

My mind is infested, with sick thoughts that circle
like a Lexus, if driven wrong it's sure to hurt you
Dual level like duplexes, in unity, my crew and me
commit atrocities like we got immunity
You guessed it, manifest it in tangible goods
Platinum Rolexed it, we don't lease
we buy the whole car, as you should
My confederation, dead a nation, EXPLODE
on detonation, overload the mind of a said patient
When it boils to steam, it comes to it
we all fiends gotta do it, even righteous minds go through this
True this, history school us to spend our money foolish
Bond with jewelers and, watch for intruders
I stepped it up another level, meditated like a buddhist
Recruited lieutenants with ludicrous, dreams of
gettin cream let's do this, against tee-dee-us
So I keep one eye open like, C-B-S, ya see me
stressed right? Can I live?

© Jay-Z

Yea...life is great...

Have a nice day!

ANNOYED...

If I see "whats understood ain't got be explained" on someones name, status, sidebar, what-the-fuck-ever...damn nothings more annoying than when I song comes out and its in everybody's shit, text msg signatures n shit, GTFOH...Lil Wayne said it let him have that quote douche bags

Changes

So yea...I'm goin through life and I realize that I'm asking God for a lot, and being blessed with a lot also! I mean I want success in this here music, I want financial security, I want joy, I want peace, want want want lol. What am I giving him? At this point I wasn't giving Him any act right, I do my dirt and I'm not as close to my Father as I should be, but I decided today that I really have to make a change. I can't be asking Him for all these things to be brought upon me and in return deeming myself unworthy. So yea! If you down with me you'll be down with me regardless, but if you can't handle it, oh well, its not about you or me, its about Him. Anyways, things are going great, I'll be going to Washington D.C. soon, I'm excited cuz I don't really get out much hahahaha. Peace.

I QUIT! (Kinda)

So I'm chillin at work mindin my own business when my supervisor and I engage in a conversation that goes a little somethin' like this:

Me: Hey
Supervisor: Hey A Dot (she calls me that too) how are you?
Me: I'm good
Supervisor: So hey why haven't you been working on the filing?
Me: What filing?
Supervisor: Ok, see all these papers? *points to a stack of papers from as early as 03*
Me:....yea
Supervisor: Yea its really getting to be a bug can you go through, make a cover sheet for all of them, take all the duplicates and dispose of them?
Me: (silence)
Her: Thanks! *Walks off*

After that point I head outside and call up my future supervisor. What seemed to be a follow up call touching base was really a call for help! When do I start over there?!?!!? She told me the 15th, so shiiiit I wrote my ONE week notice today...yay...

Oh yea...a lil snippet from an upcoming project by my dude Ledjendary...its called Hustle Hard...and I LIKE IT © Step Brothers

I feel like this sometimes

Minus the Muslim praise...I'm Christian

Yea, enjoy.

A Dot McCray

Hate

...So I was browsing through myspace on some bored shit (Labor Day Monday, I'm chillin). Every profile I see especially females has something about "keep doin what you do haters you makin me better" "I love my haters", corny shit like that. Main-O even got that song called Hi Haters, which is a bunch of bullshit to me. I'd just like to take a second to dissect what I think "hatin" is and some good examples of that.

I just stated that I think Hi Haters is lame as shit, right? Am I hatin? NO! I'm stating my opinion, I don't like it. If I don't like it, I don't like it, that don't mean that I'm hatin - Common. Some of you girls claim you get hated on, NO, you just ugly, a bitch, or both. Point. Blank. Period.

Alright, A Dot, what IS hatin then? Hating is not when you dislike or disagree with someone or their actions, its when you feel that they shouldn't be successful and wish bad upon them. Jesus Christ, my friend, was hated on. They didn't just disagree with Him, or not like where He was coming from, they beat Him and killed Him. Martin Luther King was hated on. Malcolm X was hated on. Barack Obama is being hated on something serious! I've never seen/heard so much hate for any person running for President! I'm talkin bout "Obama is the Anti-Christ", "Obama is in cahoots with the terrorists" I mean there's already been suspicion of a plot to assassinate him. On a lower scale minus the killing, cuz everyone thats hated on isn't being assassinated, Soulja Boy gets a lot of hate too. Not only do people dislike his songs, they just really regret that he's successful. 9th Wonder too, a lot of people disregard his success on some "man he just usin a computer i can do that shit too".

So what about you A Dot, who hates on you? Well, shit, nobody. I mean some people don't like my music, or really don't give a fuck, but shit thats not hatin. I haven't done anything to be hated on except for bang a couple nigga's bitches, but thats a whole different topic.

In conclusion, the word hatin/hater/hate is losing its meaning and is getting played out. I guess I'm "hatin" on the word "hatin".

A Dot McCray
HAPPY LABOR DAY